But sometimes I wish I could.

My adviser has been working on a proposal for the past couple of weeks, and I know that can mean a lot of lost sleep and a fried brain, so I’ll cut him some slack. But I would feel a whole lot better if I had the impression he remembered SOMETHING about what we discussed last semester regarding my research. It appears my hopes of defending my dissertation proposal and taking my comprehensive exam in time to register for dissertation research hours (as opposed to dissertation proposal hours) have been dashed. At this point, defending my proposal before the end of the semester is the imperative. Defending it before October would be ideal. If I can’t at least get it scheduled for early October it may be time to find an adviser who is more engaged.

So, instead of working on my research, I spent the evening on yet another update to my proposal that I just sent to my adviser in hopes that I will get some good feedback on this latest version. Ideally, I will get assurance that I finally have a proposal that is ready to defend. Whether my reading list is adequate still remains to be seen.

Like the song says, some days you’re the windshield and some days you’re the bug. I hate being the bug.